~ Wishing Star ~

Twinkle ! Twinkle Little Star! Lol! I wonder why I did not saw a wishing star for quite sometime... This was just some sort of desiring to wish upon the star!

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in the lonesome night i woke up
i heard the cricket singing
the stars twinkling so bright
up above the universe so wide..


the warm embrace of the soft wind
cold was the breeze,touching my skin;
my heart seemed longing
something deep within i cannot explain..


taking a deep sigh, looking up the sky
at last i saw it shining in the vast tranquility;
in the narrow dim of the expanse
smiling at me from a distance.


the radiance of its beauty
who could compare the mastery;
lying down to see the shining glory
wishing upon the star, could it be merry?.
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~ More _of_ You~

It's not more of me but it's more of Him who gives me everything... When I try to make finer and better things for my own, the more I cannot have it easily.... There were lots of people outside who longs to have an embrace of the one that has a pure heart...

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walking down the road seemed so endless
seeing an empty space in the wilderness
resting my soul's weary and fearful
drafting and sailing towards the new shore...


looking upward was a bright blue sky
keep smiling on my inner sigh
the sun's shining so bright and radiance
drifting my thoughts in newest paradigm...


down was a pit so deep and wide
seeing someone's mourning in his own stride
wide and narrow was the floor
letting himself drown in lone door...


one step higher were souls waiting
dying in vain much in pain
spirit's weak and full of guilt

query's remain, where thous that says? be at rest...


tears falling from deep within
trying to evade from Your calling
Jonah flew riding on boat
Resembling mine trying to fight....


Looking back was my miry world...
Your works i cannot fathom a word
my plans i cannot prevail
without You that gives mind so tranquil...
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~ Fly ~

No one could ever fill-in the emptiness deep within me than God who is there in every step of the way... I may not strong as others but when I am weak I am strong.. He let my fly on an eagle's wings...

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i saw the robin's singing a nice tune
deep down my spirit i was drown
sober in the midst of the darkest storm
bending the trees seem so strong.


across the narrow and deep portion
a hallow deep within an empty room
casting down the nets on the seashore
bowing down to His works I adore...


Broken and contrite was my spirit
nothing is hidden in Your sight..
great is Your love i cannot deny
filling my emptiness and hearts' dry...


Desires of my hearts made known to You.
my thoughts You fully knew...
restless and was sobbed
fears i cannot hide...


dreams unseen and beyond grasp
wings flew no longer fast...
in You is a complete joy
letting me fly in the midst of some try...


arms stretched in a wide embrace
looking towards the new race
abiding in your love and be at rest
spirit's weak now renew and at peace...
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~ Desperate ~

Loneliness i kept evading but it keeps running over me and when no one is there to fill-in, it was then I am desperate of Your Love My Lord!

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rain pouring out loud
darkest embrace in the cloud
tranquility out of grasp
emptiness and outcast...


thunders in its loudest roar
finding rest in His shoulder
Lord of heaven and earth
You are so magnificent...


Your ways I cannot fathom
my deepest thoughts You've known
agony in the darkest nightmare
You took me out in the mire...


Desperate of Your Love
keeping the tears to subside
my memoirs You carve
deep within your own glide...
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~ Prison ~

This is just my implied expression of being entangled in a certain situation... Though trying to be set free from the cell that keeps haunting me on...

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underneath the bright morning star
reaping sorrows beyond the scar
thirsty of water clear
soul dying in despair.


mourning in nasty nest
longs a better place to rest..
dream broken and buried
into the deep pit of grave.


rowdy sound of silence
broke the heart to frighten
mean and harsh sentinel
fury eye to compel.


shadow of the narrow sunlight
relieving tragedy's plight...
hope beyond the dark room
trembling for the coming doom...


distance in the horizon
teary eye why mourn and forlorn?
chasing the rainbow's beauty
the sky's cloudy and misty...


regrets vanished along the road
debris broken hard to restored...
why carry the heaviest load?
carriage will soon arrive to unload..


despair not in an empty balloon
new place awaits toward the new room..
above there's the smiling moon
unspoken words i cannot fathom.

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~ Reverie ~

Just a sort of imagination.. Oftentimes, I am dreaming to be in a new world far from reality! Tiring was the painful events...

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walking the woodlands vast acre
fairies dancing beyond compare
magic wand was in their hand
"make a wish " they command.


staring their eyes seemed fire
burning my hearts desire
fantasy could be true?
out me out in the blue.


coming's the lion king
food for his little offspring
up there's butterflies in varied color
singing a song to adore.


deep and blue was the sea
mermaids dancing in glee
oh what a wonderful dream
sleeping beauty did scream.

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~ river of joy ~

This was just my composition pouring out what was in my mind and heart. The river of joy could only be found when your heart set free every unknown fear and hidden cry.

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down to the little stream
purest water did ever seen
not on my wildest dream
gemstone shining amidst the hardest rain.


wrestled not to go down deep
heart's entangled beyond the cliff
precious emerald was thrown
down the river where no one's mourn.


looking back thunder's coming
flashing and rushing with its roaring
walk not in the midst of cloud
lightning flashes so light and loud.


rain outpouring in its hardest gust
spirit's weak pretend to trust
tree's branch could not last
bend by the wind strong and fast.


seas wail and ocean's mourn
creatures underneath seem forlorn
rivers rushing crystal clear water
meek hearts wanting to slumber.


deep down the lake's meekness
rivers of joy patiently awaits
long time ago nobody did visit
waiting not in vanity's secret.

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~ Enigma ~

Things sometimes are hard to grasp.. Some were unexplainable.. Others happen in a way you do not like... Nevertheless, everything could not be explain because life is a great mystery... This was created in due of my many questions...

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vast the expanse of the universe
reaping complexities... innocent unleash..
rivers never runs dry.. drought and barren..
bluer than sky, rainbows well - spoken.


beauty and beast...never at rest...
love and hatred... east to west...
lake undiscovered.. speaks tranquility..
hearts in vain.. tomorrow's sublimity...


reaching the highest peak
below the dig and miry pit
timid..meek and coward..
across the line set upward..


melodies and sweet refrain
colorful hue right after the rain...
tears deep within
uncovered the sweetness of pain...


flowers bloom gone in the wind
birds chirping... singing in vain..
clouds of doubts.. mounting on eagle's wing;
cricket singing... tiny little bug crawling...


crystal and clear... bright morning star..
glittering gold... breaking dawn afar..
enemies kiss.. faithful ones bid adieu...
long and winding.. unending chapter pursue..


mysteries behind...who could fathom?
puzzled and blue..beyond imagination..
masterpieces so true...knowledge and wisdom..
art and wonders...great is the master's plan..


fleeting..strangers pass by... pilgrim's journey...
someone's watching... history's foretold.. great is His Majesty!
wonders in the land... dreams at day break... milk and honey..
written in the sky... angels singing.. milky way's galaxy....

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~ lone street~

Lonesome lady walking in her own journey... Lone street of emptiness and pain. The last resort was God's sweet refrain. Thanks be to God ! This is my journey.

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raindrops had stopped falling
cold breeze of the wind blowing
hearts mended, debris kept forming
loud trumpet sounding.


sound of silence my ears evade
lonesome in an open field
disturbed and was reviled
mind distorted and tired.


walking across the roads nearby
hearing a sweet lullaby
tiny little bug escape to cry
endurance in the last goodbye.


winding is the lone street
the dead end was regret
the bridge seemed to broke
loaded of earthly slavery and yoke.


gazing unto the bright shining sun
emptiness started to outrun
little sparrow's new song
kept the heart to stay strong.


mounting up on eagle's wings
clouds of doubts outpouring
unto the spring of cold refreshing
flowers in the midst of the spring.


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~ little ones~

This was created through my experiences of handling the street kids of K.W.A.M. especially my little ones, the toddlers. When there was a time in my life of giving up, the more i love them more and more.

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eye of an angel it resemble
lying in an empty table
hope, love and care entangle
innocent mind seem unable.


street on a chaotic avenue
food they long to accrue
barren and was naked
little ones simply in desperate need.


sun shining so bright
never did care its twilight
trembling, struggling, running to fight
little ones love would be your guiding light.


embracing to a new world of hope
stairs upward they try to cope
vanity was in the tiger's eye
little ones fear not to cry.


angel up above brought new stars
messing up details of scars
radiance glowing in diamond light
new hope of paradise so bright.


little ones mine inspiration
traversing alone towards the street of depression
little one's memoir a semblance of survival
kept mine journal to its revival.

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~ Unending Chapter~

This was written through the pain that i have been going through from the past chapter of my life. It has no definite ending. No farewell. No last goodbye. It remain hang in the wind, gone like floating bubbles. The person was unpredictable. he seemed good and kind yet he's no good.

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Cover to pages you scan
hoping something can be grasp at hand
undying promises remain and gone
sweet kisses springs from a lying tongue.


you came and gone in the wind
unpredictable was your sweet refrain
Oh my heart how came you were drain
emptiness filled-in for a facade again.


unending and it seemed just a dream
a nightmare when you did strike by much pain
if nightmares came in real day dreaming
wish not to wake and see the sun shining.


the moon and the stars were the main witnesses
two hearts met in the narrow road across
traversing one's destination and mess
heart's wounded and could not stand for the test.


Cinderella's story had happy ending
why thous mine do not seem bring refreshing
exhausted and was tormented in vain
vanity in the midst of the heavy rain.


wounded... pain had enough room
hearts tormented for quite along
why prolong the agony in doom
ending came as will want it just a storm.
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~ Life's Reflection~

Looking back was an emotional lass. So Silent. So Timid. A Bit Coward. That was me a long time ago, but God did change me gradually in a way I could not imagine. This was my reflections. God bless everyone for visiting this expression of mine.

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Listening the sounds of the cricket
in a deep and calm night;
so cold and so quite
somebody's never did dare to greet.


Waters running and rushing down
To the river banks where it belong;
so forceful and was so clear
my eyes running was tear.


The air was so cold and fresh
touching my skin giving a fresh release;
from the scar and wounds of nightmare
long time ago i was in deep slumber.


Rainbow appeared in a colorful hue
shining in the sky so blue;
how marvelous was His hand
He made everything in its own stand.


As i look back in the fields with flowers in blossom
speaking how God had made me in His wisdom;
can i just make a bow of love?
To You, My Lord up there above.

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~ girl in town ~

This was just some sort of my imagination and a bit was out of my experiences. It's a mix nut in one. I just cannot define this girl! All I knew was her story of regrets and looking back. Important learning : " Never Look Back ".

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the sweet melodies of the birds chirping
beneath the quietness of the noonday spring;
heart's beating for overflowing joy
pieces once broken kept restoring.


there was this young girl in a little town
she kept complaining for a lovelier gown;
murmuring was her last resort
feeling blue and so discomfort.


the music of her heart was not of good tune
blaming others as she always get along;
looking back to the past journey
she never did reach to her new itinerary.


As she grows older, mind got mature
reaching to the world
she seems undefined
keeping herself to a lone paradigm.


wanderer in the lonely street of guilt
hindering herself for a new paradise of site;
lasting anger her heart's conspire
pitiful and poor she choose to untie.


Oh! little girl you're now a lady
stop acting like you don't know how to pray;
seek God and stop looking back
there's a new story right there in your heart.
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~He_Wrote_Mine~

Lord Jesus, I know You know everything in my life. My past, my present, my future. I cannot hide anything from You. I was glad You wrote a book for me. A record that has been kept in Your Kingdom. (Psalm 139:16).. This is for You Lord!

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The story was written
right there in Your Bulletin;
Past, Present and Future
You fully knew it all.


I had a book up there in Your Mansion
The Pilgrim's details has been shown;
In Your Hands that kept me going strong
Though I kept myself being stubborn.


Your love I cannot fathom
Glory and Honor,You are worthy to be crown;
God of Wonders You are real
when everything in me was made clear.


My road seem so long and winding
Never know when will its ending;
Setting mine story is just a blessing
Writing My Story,I give glory to You, My King.
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~ You are~

Dear Lord, this is for YOU. I thank You for YOU ARE THE LORD OF MY LIFE! when no one else is True, YOU ARE just the only one who remain Faithful. Glory to You, My JESUS!

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Who could compare with You,
everything in me was made known to You;
my thoughts from afar
truly You are so familiar.


Who could give what You had given?
the words that You had spoken
sink deep into my inner being
my soul longs for your presence.


You made everything in proper place
The moon and the stars in the Universe;
created for us to glorify Your face
living for You and run enough for the race.


You've sent rainbows after the rain
when my world's so dim and full of pain
You lifted me from the deepest pit
everything You've made was perfect.


How could I ever deprived You
of what belongs to You?
when everything in me was just fleeting and out in the blue.


You are my hiding place
in times when i need a rest.
You refresh my spirit
giving me a heart that was at peace.


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~ Raindrops in my eyes ~

I felt of bursting out, my temper, my heart could not still forget that it has been broken once in a while.... This was just my outlet of what has been deep within me.

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Raindrops keeps falling
Running down to a little stream
Waiting in vain
keeping the promises not to be broken.



Hearts were mended
Praying on knees' bended
Inner being had been afflicted
Wounded and still cannot be healed.



Time could only told
The story remain untold
Unending chapters to unfold
Lovers were meant to have and to hold.



Life is just a book
some chapters were of good rapport
Others were of happy ending
yet some are just a mere story telling.

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~ somewhere~

Sunday, November 09, 2008 at 7:00 PM, I was walking along the corridor when somebody called me and to my surprise , it was my 1st ever bf in college Archie Arcales, 8 years we did not see each other and here he goes again telling me he still love me??? Oh well, this is for you MR. ARCALES !

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I was walking along the corridor
hastening my steps towards the new door;
suddenly you came like a flash in the sky
stealing my heart in just a while.


It seems it was just a day dream
taking my heart again was heart breaking
promises are made to be broken
when you said you came back again.


waiting in vain, trying to ease the pain.
emptiness inside wanting to fill in again;
your presence i am always missing
your love and care,it's been my heart's wanting.


We've traveled so far in this unending road
so winding, rough and things are not secured
somehow things would be cleared
when will be meeting somewhere along that lonely road.

~ Waiting ! ~

It has been said that the greatest test of Faith is to wait. It requires 101% patient and endurance for waiting has no definite time. This composition was created in due of my complains and impatience of waiting something that is hard to grasp at hand.

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how long will i keep on mourning?
as i see the bird singing;
where thous mine? i kept on asking
to You that gives me everything.


seeing the field with blossoming flowers
i can't escape my eyes from tears
as You hold me in your arms & keep me in Your shelter
Resting my soul in Your mighty power.


where's thous my heart that seeks wisdom?
why can't i keep it from all the boredom
waiting for someone, can i have my freedom?
it's not for me to choose, its in You that comes from.

Oh my spirit stop on wondering !
God has put in your heart a spirit not of sobering.
Awake oh my soul, for God is your provider
in due time, he will grant your heart's desire.


" wait and take heart" does not He said unto you?
why worry? when He made everything timely!
Just Trust and Obey
knowing HE 's so almighty !

" When_ He_ seems_ so_ far_ away"

There was a time in my life that I was in the dilemma of frustration and depression and the only thought that I had was questioning HIM why? but as I realize that everything happens for a purpose, my doubts has been replaced with thankfulness and renewing of my first love to HIM. This was created in time of my loneliness and the only person that keeps pushing me is JESUS !

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It seems You're so far away so silent of what i ask and pray
have you ever forgotten me? i supposed not to say!


My soul hungers & wanting of Your Presence
problems inside seems i can't fully comprehend
my strength fails within me
as i wrestled against every circumstances out of my way.


I am like a wanderer in the street
life has no meaning, no direction & full of guilt
Sin keep haunting me , things in the past
i supposed not to renew
for You've made everything in me anew.


Have YOU ever leave me totally?
in Your arms, don't let me go i pray.
For i supposed to be faithful and true to You
Oh Lord, let be reminded of Your love so true.


As i walk through this journey of mine
I can't fathom the mysteries You've given me behind
The strength & mercy that intimately sublime
to my senses, it gives me peace of mind.


Bowing down to Your highness & power
It renews my spirit,mind, and temper
Knowing what You've done a long time ago
Is enough reason for me to draw closer to You.


You are near, You are here in my heart
You seem so far away when I'm gone & depart
from Your presence.
I will now make a fresh start
To renew my first love in You is a big start.

~ T_E_A_R_S ~

I was noted as the crying baby in our family ! Lol. i was just a bit sensitive and emotional. When I was still young, I could not express my anger and pain and the only resort that i had is to CRY ! That's why this was created.
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Every time my heart is in pain
that causes my eyes to rain
and no one can refrain
the tears that falls within.


Tears running down my cheek
is a sign of a great defect
for a heart that fulls of ache
every time when i am weak.


It is just a special expression
of a heart that needs attention
to someone who can rely on
through times of frustration.


When I am found it's too helpless
to found someone who arises
there's no other way to express
than to tears endless.

~ The Heart of a broken dreams ~

This was created in the perplexity of my soul. I was just wondering why oftentimes things happen in a way that is uncomprehensible.hehe.. This is still one of my unpublished composition.(just a sort of expression on something I cannot still grasp)
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Mountains have highest hill
but I've set my wings
to fly on
so high.


Oceans is vast and wide
yet,
I haven't fear
to swim its deepest part.


Storm is a strong wind
it blew and
and it bends & break
the trees
yet,
It could never harm me.
It may swing over
the sailing boat
but
the boat of mine
have an anchor
the storm can harm me no more.


Every person has a dream
so high
but
their wings cannot fligh
as high.


Mine dreams almost broken
I have it in my heart
yet
not in my hands.

I cannot resist God's plans
and directions.
Not even blaming
and asking Him why?.


For everything on earth
has its time
made by Him.


My dreams will come true
as the right time
will arrived
and
the broken debris
will be
tied up again
and
broken dreams
will
never be scattered.
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~ Memories_Of_You~

Memories Of You is one of my unpublished poems dedicated to my first ever boyfriend in College (Mr. double A). This was created through my disappoinment on our relationship and to the person itself ! Anyway, he's now happy right now I guess..

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When i look up the sky
Into this clear bright day
I'll remember you in my way
That once before we're so happy.



Those memories we've share
I thought those were forever
As we pledge we will be still
Til the end never did to fail.



Sitting down the ridden boat
Talking some of our hidden thoughts
Sharing laughter,tears and some foughts
Are just the memories of you that I bought.



Those memories keepin me strong
Every time you've given me some wrong
That leads us not to stay so long
Til forever,never be come along.



Something must gonna be alright
If you tried just to be polite
In me & you, hope you won't neglect
Those memories that you've left.

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My_Awaker

My 1st published prose in college, was published in THE VISION, the official student publication Of the University of Southeastern Philippines - College of Development Management. This was my longing to be with my former group of friends.

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If you are in my side
There's nothing to hide
That makes me inspired
Every moment I've cried.



And now that you're away
Every night I'll cry and pray
That again you'll come my way
To guide and comfort me everyday.



I wish that we can still be together
To show that love until forever
I'll wait that time sooner or later
'Coz you in me is still my awaker.



Friend, you're I'm longing for
'Coz you'll keep me standing tall
Everytime, every minute when I'm fall
You were there who comfort it all.

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~ FRIENDSHIP~

(my 2nd published prose in HS, dedicated to my close friend who had changed a lot)


I can still remember
The times when we're together
Hard trials we encounter
To make our friendship very dear.



As time goes on
You've begin to transform
You've made some actions
That destroyed our close relation.


My heart was broken
Because of your negligence, my friend
You did not even know what had happened
My feelings, you cannot comprehend.



But even if you don't give importance
And even from me you're now in a distance
I can still recall our best remembrance
The Friendship we pledge inspite of any circumstance.

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~ 1st Published Prose in High School~

" N A T U R E "

(my 1st published prose during my 3rd year in high school, this was created through my observation of the destruction of our natural resources)




How useful is nature for all
It gives happiness to every people
It's scenic views are wonderful
The Creator made it all.


Rivers, mountains, and trees
These are nature's some resources
Let's use these for progress
In this land of paradise.


Floods,typhoons and other calamities
Occurs now in different places
Due to the destruction of natural resources
We suffer that kind of circumstances.


Let's now wake up for changes
Cooperation is the best ways
To maintain the beauty of our resources
The Nature which God best masterpieces.

~ N A T U R E ~

How useful is nature for all
It gives happiness to every people
It's scenic views are wonderful
The Creator made it all.

Rivers, mountains, and trees
These are nature's some resources
Let's use these for progress
In this land of paradise.

Floods,typhoons and other calamities
Occurs now in different places
Due to the destruction of natural resources
We suffer that kind of circumstances.

Let's now wake up for changes
Cooperation is the best ways
To maintain the beauty of our resources
The Nature which God best masterpieces.